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"Like all new mothers, I couldn't believe at first he was really for me, and I could really keep him...I'm still filled with the wonder of his being, to be able to go out and come back and find that he's still there..." ~Audrey Hepburn in Barry Paris's "Audrey Hepburn", 1996.

I remember when I held Christian in my arms the second time (I got to nurse Christian immediately after he was born, then I was wheeled to a maternity ward while he went off somewhere else to get a smorgasboard of baby tests). I stared and stared and smiled myself silly. I looked and touched his perfect little face, eyes, nose, mouth, fingers, hair and toes and felt him still kicking a little while he was sleeping and thought to myself "is this really my baby?" i remember feeling that he was too perfect for me, and felt this big emotion of wanting to introduce myself gently into his very new life... afterall, he was very new to the world...