Happy 16 weeks!

My sweet little bunny Alexandra,

Happy 16 weeks. You've been such a sweet baby in so many ways. When you wake up in the morning, you'll quietly observe all that is around you while you wait for one of us to notice that you are up. Then you'll light up with the most sparkly twinkle in your eyes when you see us and give us your big toothless grin.

You've been trying to grasp stuff now. You love to lift up your skirt for some reason (your papa is starting to worry), lucky for you your jiejie Nadine has passed down some adorable bloomers so... modesty is assured (phew). Besides that, hair that's dangling over your chubby face delights you endlessly.

i enjoy holding you in my arms and slowly rocking you to sleep (or to a semi-groggy state), at that point, you'll reward me with a silent hearty laugh or a wide smile, while you drift off to dreamland. being the happy baby you are, you sleep well. actually, you slept well. ever since i went back to work ( 5 days ago), you've been missing naps and you've wailed yourself to sleep by the time i get home from work. this breaks my heart into so many pieces because i know it was not in your nature to cry and wail and you are doing this now because of so many parents-oriented decisions. i apologize but i do hope you'll learn to cope and i believe you are a clever little girl who will soon learn how to soothe yourself. meanwhile, i'm racking my brains out to find the best solution for such a predicament.

i have to admit that your mama has a more feisty personality than what i've observed of you so far. on that note, your bro is more like me. i also have to admit that your zen personality is starting to rub off on me. i'm a calmer person now because that's the way you communicate to me and i really like this new me.

i love you little sugar bunny. babyhood is so fleeting... i can't believe that it's already 16 weeks - the fact that you've been so agreeable with the world despite its sometimes depressing and difficult nature makes time fly by even faster - and you are learning so much within such a short span of time. i love your little shallow dimple on your right cheek, because you inherited that from me. although, no matter how many times i stare at your lovely face, i can't convince myself that you, the beautiful creature that you are, really are my baby and you come from me.

love you always,
mama